This morning M woke me up around 6:45. I had no idea why, at first.
Then I remembered that we agreed we’d go to the gym together this morning. It was his idea, and it means a lot to me that he wants to go.
He quickly discovered that the elliptical is the Instrument Of Satan. He hung in there, though – I’ve promised him upper body work tomorrow. Then we came home and hung laundry out together.
It’s been a while since I recognized that what we were doing was deliberately choosing ‘us’ time. I like this.
Ok, you sexy things… my sexual likes and dislikes are changing. I don’t know particularly why, either. I used to be brought to the edge of orgasm simply by M touching my nipples. And now I can barely stand the sensation, unless he is firmly massaging my tits at the same time. Light touch makes me want to scream, and not in a good or pleasant way. I used to need more time before he went for my cunt with his fingers, now it’s the first thing I want him to do – rubbing my outer labia is an immediate ticket to arousal. But not inside – I need to be really wet first.
Has anyone else had their physical responses change like this? Is it a product of getting older (I’m 35)? Is it all tied into the state of our marriage? It seems like if it were age-related it’d have been more gradual; this feels quite sudden. There doesn’t appear to be correlation between my differing responses and where I am hormonally.
I think most of my distress regarding this comes from the fact that I need to do better about telling M these things. If I don’t, next time he goes for my nipples straight away I’m likely to have a bad reaction, like I still sometimes do when my sides and back are touched too lightly. And that’s just all kinds of unfair to both of us.